As I start to think about what I may do next, I come back to the idea that I don't want to leave behind what I've done, either work-wise or community-wise.
I heard about a job opening in Berkeley and I think about moving there. At the same time, I've been really appreciating and getting deeper into my cohousing community here in Colorado. And I appreciate my art studio and the developing community through that.
I guess if I did move back to the bay area, I'd probably look for cohousing there and for an art community there as well.
Adiabatic Invariants
Physics and life fight it out. Grenoble. California. New York. Iowa. Colorado.
Tuesday, June 25, 2024
Continuity between places
Sunday, June 23, 2024
Transitions
I'm watching the last season of Battlestar Galactica today. It feels like an appropriate story to accompany a difficult time in human history and a difficult in my life. The crew has to start over again so many times. Even though I was ready for a change, it doesn't mean it's easy. My transition after Grenoble was definitely difficult. That was 8 years, and now I've been through another close to 8 years. I put a lot into my work at RadiaSoft and it's not so clear whether much of it will continue on. Like my years in France, a long investment. I've looked for continuity in life and it's often been elusive.
The very nature of humanity is questioned again and again. And our relationship with technology is centered.
I'm worried about the upcoming election. Are people really confused enough to elect Donald Trump? And I'm worried about climate change. Will humanity find a way to come together to address this problem, or will we put our head in the sand?
I'm glad I'll have some time now to sit with all this before figuring out what to do next.
Sunday, December 31, 2023
My dad's life
Monday, December 25, 2023
Liminal time
Monday, November 20, 2023
thoughts on Israel/Palestine
Sunday, November 12, 2023
Balloons
Thursday, November 02, 2023
Life's complexity
I've been waking up at 4am recently, feeling stressed out. So many different threads in life and the world and it's hard to see how they will turn out. Getting to know people at Nyland and to understand the complex organization. The difficulties in the world- war and climate change and people not getting along with each other. And my complex job, working with a lot of different organizations, trying to do something meaningful, to help with the technology of particle accelerators at the same time as to understand the kinds of experiments done with x-rays and neutrons to understand the atomic structure of materials and elementary excitations of matter. Sometimes I feel like I'm pretty good at managing complexity and pulling different pieces together into something that makes sense, and sometimes I feel like it's all too much for me. I suppose painting has always been a kind of practice for this aspect of life. How do we pull together the pieces of this world that seem much more fragmented than any one person can manage?