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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

a lot to do

What does it mean to have a lot to do?
To be busy, to have lots of plans, to answer any new requests negatively...
But its not so objective. Its a tool- to say one is busy. Or rather, we define the number of new things we want to take on. Sometimes one says that just breathing is all they are doing during a certain amount of time. "I will be meditating/resting/relaxing/taking it easy tomorrow afternoon." But maybe what this really means is that they are processing something, thinking about something, feeling something. So does this person have a lot to do? Or are they considered lazy?

Thursday, May 25, 2006

three items

trying to throw junk in my office away.
lots of pieces of paper. one of them had a list of items to accomplish:
read comics (check)
waste time (check)
stare at wall (check)

Friday, May 19, 2006

therapy/exploration/friendship?

I was rereading "The Drama of the Gifted Child", a sort of psychological analysis of smart kids with parents that don't have it all together, or are inadequate in some way or another. This sets up a certain dynamic where the kid can tend to put more effort into the needs of others than him/herself. So, yes, this is a specific, "malady", if you like. Why does such a person need therapy? How is it different from a dedicated friend who has been around similar people, or maybe has had similar experience? Is it just the one-sidedness of the therapist-client relationship that's special, or is there more? Is it just the continued emphasis on self-exploration- if you tend to do that with your friends anyway- be a self analytical type person, then what more does therapy offer? I guess that its the specificity of the role that the therapist is supposed to play. They listen, form a big picture, and try to find the origins of certain behavior- emphasising it again and again until the client does the same thing himself. Something like that.
Also, can I come up with a better adjective than "smart" or "gifted". What about "sensitive"? Is there a specific character trait associated with having an adaptable personality that makes one susceptible to non-normal "self" or "personailty" formation?
I know I could probably read more, and don't need to reinvent the wheel here...

failed cult members

I was recently reading about Scientology, and came across some interviews of ex-members. Most of them talk about the nasty aspects of scientology and warn people against it. For some reason, the comments of this person stuck with me. Calling the whole religious/cult phenomenon "trivial" is a pretty narrow view though.

Friday, May 12, 2006

Thursday, May 11, 2006

dream

There was a scavenger hunt type game in which we all received a clue.
We searched the lockers, but the mixture of individual agency, collective goals, selfishness and ineptness turned the game into the usual non-sensical adventure.

I was wrestling the same person, winning again and again. It was too easy.

Not sure how to interpret this one. Life hasn't been exactly easy lately.

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

direction

getting a little tired of writing about movie after movie.
though i did just see a good one ("The Passenger")
my next job is figured out, which is nice. just got back from a great backpacking trip.
i'm still happy with the title of this blog. although now that i'm basically done with grad school, i need to reinterpret the subtitle.
yes, direction. fog has no orientation. i'm almost done with "Elizabeth Costello", maybe i'll say a few words when i am.