own terms

I had two dreams recently. In one I press a button and climb into a tram. The tram travels quickly along a wire. The views are immense and grand and severe. I look into the car and see myself alone, watching the mechanisms.
In the second dream I am in the forest. Trees sprout large branches and fall, crashing around me. But I am on my feet. I can dodge the branches. I make it beyond the trees into a clearing.
There is more, but I will leave it at that.

I want to have my feet on the ground. I want to continue muddling through. But the only options that seem to be presented to me are big press the button options. I want to have discussion, and be a part of the choice. I try to remind myself that I don't know what's ahead. But in this field, every time I didn't know what was ahead, it was hard, and usually not in my interest. I've identified things that I like. To choose some big unknown over trying to get to things I know work for me does not seem right.